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Name: Zach
Country: United States
State: Pennsylvania
Metro: Hanover
Birthday: 6/3/1988
Gender: Male
Interests: Talking to friends, playing guitar, music is my life without it I would die, going out, poetry, animals, movies games. Stuff like that.
Expertise: Animals,Guitars, problems, talking.
Occupation: Artist
Industry: Art
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  NEWFLAW2
Member Since:
7/4/2004
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| Well lets see in on my third term at hagerstown I have a red neck girlfriend still at home working only at the rescue I am writing all this down so i can look back and have a memory ... been the life of the party for some time now its all in good fun but is wearing me down.... Stayed up 2 days messed up for all of it oh well im young once and hopfully ill look back at my decicions and be able to use them in my future...it is so weird growing up ive only just started to do it and yet its happening all at once.... I wonder what my next post will entail maybe it will be another day of parties and fun or a sad story but what ever the case im still gonna appreciate not only what ive done but what i have yet to do
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| Well lets see another year has gone by or is close to being done at least. 2006 has been one of the worst years of my life. I lost my grandmother, a dear friend, Katrina my 22 year old tiger, my brother almost died, first car wreck, and so much more. It has had its highlights though I graduated with honors, found a girlfriend, now a supervisior at ski liberty, and today I enrolled in to Hagerstown Business College. It is odd to think I am furthering my education. Common oppinion of me isnt to high ide expect, but there is so much more than hits the surface. Ever since I lost my tiger it has been harder for me than anything I can remember. I mean what do you do when the reason why you continued down a path dies. I am having to face some really hard decision. I think it is time for me to stop wasting my time on my childish hobbies and move on. Another highlight of my year was that I went to Mexico again. Me and Steve found out all about dos eces or XX...lol But 2007 is comming and I just hope it brings me more luck this year then 2006 has provided. Living here at the rescue has taught me so much and taken as well but hand me anyother life and I would have to refuse. I got Jess and Mom talking again and her and Missy are coming up this weekend which should be my last blast in 06'. But here is to new beginings and remembering where I have come from.
The north star has fallen,
Yet the moon burns bright,
Spinning compass needles,
Lost among the night,
Holding dear to the end,
Closing the windows of the soul,
Finding hope in solitude,
The heart shall take control,
Bearing on till dawn,
Watching over the hill,
Knowing what it was,
Even though it could kill,
Yielding to eternal love,
Feeling once again,
Always on point,
Now lives within.
for you Kat
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| Well ok then It has been since june since my last update... Summer went by so fast.... more by choice then anything... I think I fill the void in my life with things that will never fill it ... just keep it at bay so I can sleep at night... Of all the things in the world that I want hold that need is for some one to be in it with me... Ive been contemplating what kind of girl I would be looking for.... Yet I found one and never really will get over her... its just crazy... something so old shouldnt affect me today... its been since last march and yet still I feel empty inside.... I finally told some one how I really felt...my brother of all people lol he was actualy there for me for once... its been wild me and him have been getting closer yet he still doesnt like my extra caricular activities lol he just turned 21 and I threw him a suprise kegar....lol it was amazing ive never seen him feel so happy... cuz I know the major void in his life is a lack of friends... not saying that he doesnt have any ... I just think he often feels like the only one he trust is his gf.... its kinda hard watching him being with the same girl for 4 years... its crazy... my longest was 5 months... how can he do it... idk but i think me and him have turned a new chapter... back when I was young I would bitch about my parents keeping me down and my brother the asshole but idk now its different ive grown up... everyone wishes they were 18 when there young ... cant wait to get out of here but im here now Im 18 and life isnt unbarable... it seems to me that ive been rambling on... Im just keeping my feelings on the line here... bottom line is that I want to stop this game Im playing now and start my life... but I tell myself that hold on after november I can start the rest of my life... cuz in november i go to mexico... but idk i want to get started and stop wasting my time... I really do miss my ex and even though I do want to hate her i cant... but deep down i need to let her go cuz if i dont ill ruin the next best thing to happen to me... well I will try to keep my feelings on here when ever i can .peace world Open Waters Standing on the ocean, Breaking through the waves, Passing by the ports, Tasting all the craze, Putting wind in the sails, To keep the ship moving on, Only to drop anchor, Now that it’s gone, Plugging the holes, Staying afloat till the next hurricane, Each time it doesn’t fit, Puts the ship into shame, Time after time, The boat starts to fall past the water line, The only problem there is no ship, It is what you feel inside, Just cruising the seas of emotion, Looking for the right one, But now it’s dark on rough waters, Just praying for the sun, Exploring the last unknown, Mapping out the heart, But the ocean is dangerous, And the Boat is surrounded by sharks, Pushing it to the hazard, For a reason that doesn’t exist, Joining the rest of the fallen, In the depths of the great abyss, Who will come to salvage this wreck? Is the gold inside worth the trip? Coming to the bottom, To save the sunken ship? | | |
| When I was younger I always asked myself what would i see when i reviewed this xanga... ive seen girls, parties, friends all just come and go.... but idk i thought i would have figured more out in my life by now... since the last entry my brother went into the hospital was almost dead(had lameirres disease *rare*) but they found out what it was and treated him.. so his lazy ass is back to normal... i graduated and now im 18... yay....lol idk it just seems so crazy to think my life just ended and a new one is starting.... idk the only thing that is consistint with these entries are that i know when i wrote them i felt alone... and sadly enough to say here i am writing and the feeling is still here.... it comes and it goes... but i had a blip in my life that it wasnt there.... but i choose to forget one of the best things that happend to me so that if its forgotten i wont miss it so much... anywho hmmm happy things let me think... me and scott now have the top house to ourselves... its nice ...lol idk it just seems that no matter what i do i still feel like there is some thing missing i really have no idea what it is... actually thats a lie i do know what i miss.. but i will find it again some day just when i dont expect it... and ill write in here again being happier... till then ill try to keep this updated dont hold your breath....peace
Bitter sweet night time,
Cast me upon thy mercy,
You envelope my pain,
Never ending tragedy,
Isolation within its grasp,
Heart to endure all,
Past scars the present,
Rising only to fall,
For what sour tongue,
Has laid before the way,
Casting rock to metal,
Night into day,
Harmony but of dreams,
Night terrors as they may,
Broken spirits,
Flaws open on display.
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| - Grape Vine Ok wow it has been forever since i last updated....lets see had a blast with my brother for about a month and a half while he was single but that is over cuz he is back with her...my grandmother past away and that was hard on all of us... it still is... i got an 86.3 gpa without trying... life has just changed so much these past few monthes ...passed my senior project....liberty is over for the season and the end of the year party is this weekend... so that will be fun...my uncle dave came into town and got to hang out with him... I figured life out for after high school... Plan to take over the rescue while my parents sell the other side ... take some business courses ... then when this place dies down open up my own coffee shop... there is some more fine print to it but that is just the high lights for right now... anywho life has had its ups and downs... been selling coffee in accounting class which makes school a bit better cuz i get a cup of coffee which is nice... anywho there is prolly more than that going on but to hecktic to think about it all...lol here is a poem for english class that i had to do...peace
One dozen,
Red roses to fill the heart,
Changing destiny in baby breath,
Love locked kisses igniting sparks,
Flowers to mend broken dreams,
Flowers to widen the shut eyes,
To take away the darkness,
To wipe away the cries,
Sweet memories,
Soft kisses,
A rose,
For every year that he misses,
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Written By: Zachary Clay Murray
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hey, whats up dude? =p